unRepentant Procrastinator

omg...i'm going to pull my hair out...not stress...just frustrated!! and yes...sick of assignments...i guess that defines uni life doesnt it?!have just spent a whole weekend and 2 more days on a politics essay...i have 2 bloody essays due tomorrow...well technically one essay and another is an exam, but it's an essay as well which i have not studied for... and its nearly midnight now...and i'm still stuck on the essay!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wish...i wish...i wishh..........i don't even dare to wish...i just have to finish this...and still have time left over to study for the exam... =( and yes...i have another one due in 2 days time.................... *sigh*

a world in need of saving

the world is never as simple as we want to think it is. it is horrible messy. even bloody at times. what is good and what is bad never seems to be what it is. remember the proverb, "one man's meat is another man's poison"? here's a modern twist to it, "one man's terrorist is another man's freedom fighter". a man i met, upon the knowledge i was taking 'politics' as a subject, commented that "you're brave". i have had numerous comments of that sort. in retrospect, it's rather telling of politics and the citizenry. we as citizens don't particularly want to know what is our government capable of, much less the American citizenry. we criticise Bush for his actions. so what? our governments are equally capable of doing what he does. those who speak the loudest, would probably have done what Bush is doing, perhaps worse! we criticise so much without an understanding of the reality behind it, much less a solution! it just struck me again and again, without forgiveness there is no end to this revenge-cycle. go to CNN and simply click on any of a news report of any conflict - i would be bold to say that the conflict is a result of a revenge-cycle. what chalmers johnson terms "blowback" - basically the unintended consequences of government policies that were kept secret from the people - is but a revenge-cycle. 9/11 was a revenge attack. iraq is a revenge attack. afghanistan (in whichever year) was revenge attack. israeli-palestinian conflict - need i say more? of course there was the original unprovoked attack. that itself is probably a result of a deeper reason. i hate to give examples for i don't want to condemn. but its heart-wrenching. it is. a lecturer once said, its necessary to keep a distance when studying facism for it messes with our minds. i reckon its the same with politics. its so disheartening to see the bloody mess this world is (literally). its one bloody mess. a far cry from the garden of Eden isnt it. what happened to forgiveness? what happened to love? what happened to the church? weren't we called to be His hands and His feet? we can't do everything, but we must do something!