Syd vs Melb (behind the scenes)

back in sydney for a couple days now- things seem to be settling down...
the official decision is made: I am Staying in Sydney, studying at UNSW :)

haha..some ppls will be happy :P and im glad that you guys are here too.. it makes staying easier..seems like God's leading that way, and His spirit is moving me that way.. but you know what? knowing the right thing to do doesn't make doing it any easier...i did struggle with the decision i've made... i know i've changed my mind just about a million times :) the story goes this way - i have applied to 4 diff uni's, and in the 2nd week of jan, i found out that ALL four of them accepted me... and after prayer and talking with parents and friends, i decided that UNSW is the best choice..and i did feel God's spirit prompt me to stay in Sydney for various reasons :)

then Melbourne came along...and seeing that my parents were not gonna come that often, and my sister's in melb, it seemed right to move to melbourne..so we did! and the offer letter from melbuni came, and sam got accepted into his high school (which was why we left malaysia so quickly and suddenly)...but eventually, there came to a point, where we could NOT find a house...and that's saying something - because looking for a house had never been a problem in the past, even under impossible circumstances.. that called for a review of the matter :)

which led to the final conclusion of i'm gonna stay in sydney and study in unsw.. :) reasons being God's leading, and God spoke clearly again to my spirit - Stay In Sydney.. if He speaks the second time i better not ignore Him! haha..i really wanted to go melbourne, so i conveniently ignored His leading... :P i guess that wasn't very smart huh :) so all in all i'm really grateful for all that's been said and done... and that taught me really to trust more in God...

and it's over now...

ohya....sorry bri - didn't mean to desert u.. :( well, on a happier note, to the guys and girl in melb - cheers* it's gonna be fun :) i believe God has so much in store for u guys... :) as for sydney..it's gonna be a whole new adventure..

here's a toast to more amazing stuff this year :)
when this year's christmas comes around again..and we gather again..let there it be testified as to how amazing His everlasting faithfulness (even in foreign circumstances) and we'll all give thanks to the One who never left nor forsake us!! be blessed y'all... :) *hugs n kisses*

nostalgia

omigosh...jus been reading everyone's blogs...so emo!! (ben-hang on there-u'll be home soon..!! :) its truly my last night in malaysia for a long time..and soo..so....mixed feelings now....as i was reading everyone's blog (in mjyf)...and im just sitting here...really feel like crying now...seriously - so bittersweet...im truly truly looking forward to life in melbourne... (hav i mentioned.. i got accepted into melb uni~) but...but....yeah...malaysia is jus........*speechless* !! the feeling is diff...everytime i leave for aust again it just feels like im ripping a piece of my heart and leaving it in malaysia....ahhh.... i'll miss this place...alot...!! saying goodbye is not enough...like there's not enough time to see everyone....

and i was just looking through old stuff like letters, cards, invitations, prayer requests, and old journals...that was just major nostalgia man!! like the beginnings of mjyf-where it was just 5 of us...eden,vernmay,james,isaac and me....and...and....ahh............................... :P haha...the times where i left my then trademark "smiley face" everywhere...grin* and saw the letters from people i haven't thought about in a long time!! people i was close to last time..and we've grown apart...never thought i'd feel so much regret....wished we were closer.........

okok...enough of this emo-ness....... i havent actually finished packing yet...and i'm leaving the house in 6 hrs time...ah well :) better go and finish packing...

second last day in malaysia

this month its been packed. of fun. of awesome food. of memories.
met up with old friends - you guys are still the same old, yet you've changed so much.
christmas/new year - that was awesome. read melissa's blog to get a full rundown of what happened - with pics! that chiq did an amazing job on that :)

aaron's birthday was awesome!! celebrated at curve (again!) - at Old Town Kopitiam. the boss didn't really like us as we created a circle of small tables, so other customers didnt have tables to sit at. but food was good, fellowship was fun :) aaron was happy with his two li'l birthday cakes! went to watch movie "The Pathfinder" after that - ahh..the poster and trailer are absolutely Misleading. its rather the epitome of MisLeading. it was rather interesting - girls screamed, bri declaring somewhat loudly she was gonna kill someone - and the dialogue was less than 50 lines, half of it being in some random viking language. haha - a disturbing and (in my opinion) a pointless movie about a tribe of people massacring another tribe of people! -_-" yeeng got bored and started feeding me sweet popcorn (haha..) well, try eating while ppl are getting slaughtered on screen. eeps. but it'll be one of the funny memories of movie watching with mjyf ppls =)

today, met up with bri, eden, aaron and andrew for lunch at 1u wongkok. i like the interiors! its green! the bestest colour :) spent bout 3 hours eating lunch and just chatting. we got to more serious stuff, about love life and relationships. i've gotta say i got to know more of aaron in this 3 hours than i've ever did - though i somewhatknew him all my life! it was in a way, revelatory. thanks aaron for being so open. walked some more in 1u, then eventually bri eden n me ended up chatting somemore by the poolside of eden's condo. convo drifted to an area i didnt think it would - lets say it ended on a good note. im glad for that convo. the future holds more than man can think now. what seems to be suffering is just temporal - in order for things to work out good in the future. God can see so much more into the future than any of us can - nuff said!

met with phoebe n adrian for dinner. know what? i love these ppl :) nuff said. phoebe's been a constant in my life. thank God for having her in my life, and always being there too. but suddenly trauma attack - can't breathe. dizzy. pins n needles. need oxygen. panicked! and scared the crap outta adrian n phoebe. haha. least to say, they drove me home - phoebe drove a Perdana for the first time!! cos adrian had to drive his own car, she cant drive manual :) got home safe and sound. started breathing normally again.

an account of what happened today. i dont know what to feel. like im numb to the feeling of leaving malaysia again. and leaving for sydney. then leaving sydney to melbourne. life's just moving on. so much. what can i say? thank You my Father, for truly You never changed when everything was whirling around!

Peer Pressure

haha...I have to admit that I have suscepted to Peer Pressure!! Who says all peer pressure is bad? Looking at it now, I do now claim a spot in the world wide web of blogging as somewhat my own :) For those who read, welcome to the world where my thoughts reside.. haha.. warning in advance though, I kinda love writing.. so blabbings are inevitable.. *cheers*