its 3.22am..and the rain is falling.. (no not really)

if anyone recognizes the title - its a set of lyrics.. "its 2am and the rain is falling.. here we are at the crossroad once again" its the song by trademark.. or crossroad song (as i call it) =)

o h m y g o o d n e s s >.<
i PROMISE and i P.R.O.M.I.S.E
i will finish my assignments BEFORE the actual due date - its 3.22 am now - and i'm still trying to finish this essay and am hitting a writers block - not a good time to have it i know =)
dear me.. =.= its week four of uni - its just week four... hopefully i shall NOT procrastinate...in the near future...

*deep breath*


back to essay writing o_O

Divine Orchestration of World Super-Powers

before reading the below.. let me say that I am not one to analyse current events nor am one who claims much understanding of international affairs - and by attending tute's i can see how limited my views are... =) everyone's so smart in tutes!! i get rather intimidated somethings =) but as i was doing an assignment on why the US was attacked by terrorists on september 11.. something truly struck me...

but let me backtrack a little.. in ancient israel, we know that King David and King Solomon ruled a united Israel - and that was considered the Golden Era.. where they were relatively powerful in their region... was it because they were better than anyone else? was it because they were skilled in the art of diplomacy? come on, Ahab and Omri (the "bad" kings) had the best foreign policy of all!!! the list can go on and on... but in reality, it was because of a power vacuum in the area (meaning, lack of super-powers, eg. Assyria had not yet risen, Egypt was in a weakened state) that allowed Israel to stand up and flex her authority in the Syria-Palestine area... God orchestrated the events that allowed for Israel's Golden Era..

parallels can be drawn in America as a super-power today... the reason the US became so powerful, among other reasons, was because of a power vacuum after WWI - where Britain and France had monstrous war debts (esp to the US) and their economies were significantly weakened post-WWI...it is a simplified version of history, but it would suffice in this context.. was it because they were better than anyone else? I dont think so, and I believe that many in the world today would agree with me... instead it was the foundation on which the US was built on - the founding fathers were Puritans and Quakers - people who came to the New World to find a place where they could worship God as they saw fit...

this is an over-simplification of history as it is...but it does show the point that God is the controller of the world - nonewithstanding world affairs... and even though the world seems like it's in a mess as it is now - with the war on terrorism and civil wars that are tearing countries apart... the heart breaks at what evil man is capable of, yet there is a certain assurance that in the midst of suffering and evil, God has His hand among us... for where Your Hisis, there is freedom - freedom not necessary from physical suffering... but a liberation of the spirit to rejoice despite circumstances..

Since Uni Started...

started uni for 3 weeks d =) and the downside to it is that..i've THREE assignments (already) consecutively due in a week's time..and its all rather "new"....

but to start off this blog... here's a random story...happened not long ago =)

i was jus sitting on the library lawn, minding my own business and eating my lunch..and enjoying the last few sunshines of the summer..when this guy appeared in my line of sight..and chose a spot about 10feet infront of me.. he took out a piece of paper-like thing...in a quick movement he added more stuff on the paper.. then he started rolling it into a cylinder shape - the next thing you know he's puffing away on a brand-new home-made ciggy.. LOL... i know i know i havent seen much of these stuff - so forgive my surprise... but man - smoking weed in the middle of the day - in the middle of nowhere?!!?!? hahaha... that guy really made my day..in a way..it was hilarious... but on a more sombre note, its sad that ppl get so used to smoking (weed or not)... ahh...

plus - i've gotta add... it's gonna be a bomb for most of youse who knew me from a long time ago... I DROPPED MUSIC =) but i've gotta say..it was a surprise to me as well... the story goes...we had this practical class where we had to perform...and when i heard my classmate play, mann they had this passion for the music they were playing that i could not, for the life of me, find it deep inside of me...they truly liked and enjoyed the music they were playing when i looked inside and discovered that i could not honestly say i loved classical music..or jazz music for that matter.. don't get me wrong, i still thank God for the gift of music He's given me...and i'm still gonna serve Him in church and in whatever situation He places me in..but as far as doing it "professionally" in terms of doing a Uni Degree in it, that just doesn't resound in my spirit/soul/mind/body! so there u go... that's the story...and right now i cant officially change my degree yet, so still doing a bachelors of music, but my subjects are in history, politics, globalisation and jewish studies... stuff i like... but i reckon it's bit tough - as in difficult to digest and regurgitate =.= it's a relieft to leave behind the "burden"..of having the expectation that im gonna do music.. =)

but in a way..it leaves a kinda gap..my identity has been tied up with the notion of music all this while..i guess its time to get away from it huh.. =) that's all for now......

loves,hugses...
-Ange-